I got in a fight with some ninja sharks
Sep. 9th, 2010 05:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
frightenedI've figured out why counselling is increasingly annoying me, and why in particular it went so badly on Tuesday. It's because we're doing cognitive therapy.
It suddenly hit me today. The assumption that I'm wrong about or misinterpreting everything. The insistence on reinterpreting events in a more positive light. Constantly talking about me seeing things negatively. Harping on about my intelligence. The sudden changes of subject when that doesn't work, the refusal to dwell on anything negative for the sake of exploring it. When asking me how I thought counselling was going, specifically focusing on whether I thought I was learning to look at things from a different perspective.
Dammit, I specifically said I respond very badly to cognitive therapy and I didn't want it. I'm gonna give him the benefit of the doubt and say he's defaulting to it unconsciously, rather than deliberately trying to do something I asked him not to. But we need to hash this out next week, because it's a pretty fundamental problem.
It suddenly hit me today. The assumption that I'm wrong about or misinterpreting everything. The insistence on reinterpreting events in a more positive light. Constantly talking about me seeing things negatively. Harping on about my intelligence. The sudden changes of subject when that doesn't work, the refusal to dwell on anything negative for the sake of exploring it. When asking me how I thought counselling was going, specifically focusing on whether I thought I was learning to look at things from a different perspective.
Dammit, I specifically said I respond very badly to cognitive therapy and I didn't want it. I'm gonna give him the benefit of the doubt and say he's defaulting to it unconsciously, rather than deliberately trying to do something I asked him not to. But we need to hash this out next week, because it's a pretty fundamental problem.
